assalammualaikum sumer....long time no see....i've been busy with my exam period..i guess a lot people must wonder why i use this tittle this time...as you all know 2012 is the most changes years to me...from the first month till now a lot of different things happens to me...im not in my right mind i think..heheheehehhe...as my heart hurt my mind also hurt..trust is something that important between human..but it never been fulfill...there's must been broken somewhere..first thing that i want to story about is sadness that have been keep...i hope my life simple as the drama..always have happy ending..but that is a dream that will not everyone achieve...sometimes even myself cannot afford that sadness anymore...it feel like kill me a little more inside...there's a time my tears will fall without im realize..that is when someone i love in pain...when i want to send her away to go back to her place..i had a naughty fight with that person....a first sentence that she said to me.."eventhough my pain is not that serious than others who know God may take me anytime anywhere..who knows"...as the word come out from a person mouth i feels like pain inside...as the time flies i send her away with no smiles in my face as i rebel to that person..but who knows what i feel inside...after i turn away from her stare my tears falls continuesly without im realize it..i feels like choke inside..i just want to say to her as long im alive..i will take care of her no matter what happens..i will always be by her side...you are not alone..second things is a friends betrayal towards another friends....i learn from my mistake now..think twice or more before make any decisions..young blood in my vein always rebel when time is not suitable..that means i always make a mistake without think twice...i ignore my parents just to accompany her...i think live with will make me feel more dependable..but i was wrong i make my parent more suffer...as the times flies i realize i just a place for her when she in trouble..im just a friend when she needs me..that make me feel more ache inside..it is hard for me..i hope i wont be a cruel ,selfish person in future.. sometimes we must learns from a mistake...i think it is not her false...she didnt think that her action will make another person hurt...she's a good friend for me...all the time i spend with her is full with happiness but that time will not last forever...it will change as time flies...the thing i want to said to her is...thank you for being my friend in all the time we have been together,we will still be frens but not as same as the past...i hope you understand...people will change somehow... third thing is something that i thing it happens to me repeatedly...i dont know why i will fall in this thing...maybe it want me to realize this is not my time yet...a sacrifice love to me is is a waste-less...it is because i become useless person with the hope someday he will look at me and be together...that just a dream that i, myself create...it is so stupid thing i have been thinking..and it is useless..but all the things not gonna happen if know how to handle it..being in love is not wrong...it will be one of our happy memories...i hope one day i will have courage to said this thing...i hope you will see me as a women that will fulfill your life as a good listener,a good wife, a good mother toward your child and a good friend forever together.... i also hope will not lose my smile and my happy lifestyle in the future...see you all in future...from onward i will always update this blog...what for me!!!! go go go go life!! SMILE ALWAYS...adios!!
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